CW: the "I" word
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I think I have started to partially integrate or something, without initially realizing it or aiming for it. The lines are beginning to blur. What used to be only something nana or merry did, i now do and enjoy and its *mine*. Memories that used to be notme are now *mine*. Some alters are starting to feel less and less like notme, over time. Even with the alters that still have the firm line, I have started to phase in when they come out, rather than popping back out jarringly. I feel scared at the idea of integrating completely. But as long as I can work through the anxiety and ptsd... I think im okay with this development.