Hi! I have seen a lot of DID peeps on here posting, and I want to preface by saying that I do not have DID.
I've been told recently I have dissociative D/O, most likely depersonalization. My question is this:

I get the "high" feeling, the out of body experience, and during this time period I feel like nothing is real. Colors are different and I'm weirdly happy. I also "forget" who I am. I struggle with my identity in a way that isn't so much "What am I here to do/why am I here" but moreso "What do I like? What makes up who I am?" I forget about being a kid- I can't remember a huge chunk of my life, except for the intense traumas. Sometimes I forget what I look like physically, almost like, who I am has nothing to do with the body I'm inside of. I always have a vague outline of events or who I am, but the details are completely lost. Most of the time I feel fuzzy and uninterested in social interaction because it proves to be A LOT of work for me to remember how to react or how to service the other person's needs. My clothes are whatever I put on because I don't identify with any of it. I don't identify as a girl, or a boy, or barely a human. I have a huge imagination and often find myself drifting into daydreams even when it's inappropriate for someone my age. One day I will be overzealous and nurturing and caring but other days I don't care about anything and am very mellow. I think a lot of that has to do with my period but I'm never sure.

None of this bothers me other than the fact that a lot of things don't get done or I struggle with my ability to find consistency in anything. I like the high feeling, I like that I don't worry about my physical appearance. But the lack of memory and identity is confusing.

Is this typical of someone with dissociative?