Update on the ID: I still dont have it, but someone with ID can pick me up my medication, and I called IOP and they said its fine. So that crisis is averted.

Update on breaking it off with them: i havent done it yet. Im stalling, trying to figure out what to say. I like her so much. I dont want to do this but I need to. There are some important double standards of how she wants to be treated vs how she treats me, and the gap of what i feel ive put into this relationship emotionally vs what i feel i get back is too big. I have a gut feeling that that isnt good and a gut feeling that talking through it, in this case, would make things worse. So im listening to my gut instead of my heart.

"I can feel it.... In my belly." - Santa Claus, Rise of the Guardians