Like jimi....I find myself easier to get set off when I'm really tired....but.....
I was living in a bad marriage for 33 years & the issues that my H kept doing kept piling up my anger.....& even before that when I lived at home with my parents....there were so many things that they did that had a bad negative effect on my life & I would end up jumping all over them with my yelling...especially at my mother. I realized that my parents though they didn't know what they were really doing were great at triggering issues & it was impossible NOT to react to them.....then I ended up married to someone who was way too much like my father that I promised myself I would NEVER do & all that I went through in my marriage just triggered the triggers that had already been set off in my growing up years.
For me it's like when a glass gets filled up with water over time & then it's bulging & that one last drop makes it spill all over......our emotions are the same. If there have been things going on in your life that have been building up it could be that it's just been over the last 4+ months that you have finally been pushed to that overload point.
I finally left that bad situation & it was amazing how quickly I did calm down. For awhile it took really major frustrations that would trigger my anger...but now, over the last 8 years, I have finally mellowed out completely. I was honestly afraid that the me I had become was the me that was me....but I'm so glad it wasn't because I do like being calm & not overreacting.....but my overreacting that I had come to experience felt NORMAL at the time.
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Leo's favorite place was in the passenger seat of my truck. We went everywhere together like this.
Leo my soulmate will live in my heart FOREVER Nov 1, 2002 - Dec 16, 2018
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