1. How do you be more open?

* Is it talking about sensitive things?
Or allowing your T to push/challenge you?

- You will be more open when you start telling your T more. Just start small and do what your comfortable with. Your T can push you to tell you things, but they can't read your mind. You ultimately have to be the one to tell them because they wouldn't know until you do. Usually, what you're not being open about is sensitive, so yes. It's sensitive things... Or the stuff you need to actually work on or talk about. Not everything needs to be said, but the more you say the better they can help.


2. How do you lead therapy?

* My T told me it's my therapy and I need to lead (pick topics).

- My T says that too. I've tried so hard to get my T to lead, and she usually won't. It's annoying. I make her ask me questions. One time I told her to ask me questions, and she asked "what do you want to talk about?" Or another time she asked "what are you thinking?" Right after I said that "I don't want to talk about what I'm thinking. Just ask me questions instead." [emoji23][emoji23][emoji23] So, I don't know. Sorry. Still working on that in my own therapy. I think we don't want to lead, because we know what we need to talk about, but we are afraid to actually talk about it. Which is true for me.


3. How do you convey emotions when you have the ability to smile even when you're sad?

* I can't read my T's expressions and she can't read mine When I told her today I didn't know what to talk about, she thought I was playing around with her...

- Well, I laugh a lot. Even during VERY serious conversations, I'll just laugh or make jokes about what we are talking about because I'm, in reality, really uncomfortable with it. My T says I'm very witty and funny... More so when the conversations get more serious. My T said its my way to make the conversation "less heavy" for me so it's easier to take. She even said a while ago, that I'm not taking these appointments seriously anymore (she doesn't say that anymore. But it was during a time I was cutting myself compulsively and was extremely)... I kept avoiding talking about serious things and made jokes and laughed a lot. But even then, she still got the fact I was in a lot of pain, and was very sad. She saw through the act. She'll get how to read you eventually to where you CANT foul her anymore ugh... Wish I still could. Sorry I'm not very helpful. I'm too screwed up haha...

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