I am an only child and I never was comfrotable around babies.I never "baby sat". I think puppies and baby animals are cuter than humans....Also, I had a terrible mother and knew i would not want to put any living thing though THAT type of treatment~ I always thought I would be a poor parent...Now that I cannot have children, I wish I had one. I do think I would have been a great Mom, expercially to an only, as I know what it is all about. I would not do well with more than one as I cannot really relate to what having a "sibling" means.

IDK, when I was 30 I thought, "Kirby, get pregnant". I also thought how much I missed my father growing up(he died when I was 11) and how unfair/selfish I was being. I DO feel a solo grown man or woman is capable of raising a child. But I knew i would need help, and a lot of it. I have never been married or committed relationship to have child with another person.

DO I wish i had a child because I see how much enjoyment others have with theirs, Maybe? Is it my loneliness, maybe?

I see people, couples, my own mother...whom should have never had a child. It is a tought call.

I do feel like I am missing parts of life as I have never lived with anyone, been married, or had a child. It makes me very sad.