Thanks for all the responses and I still don't know what to do. I want to make and appt, but if she was glad I left and would not want to see me, then I'd not want to go. And after 7 years it seems a t would at least let a person know she's still there or even wonder what happened that a person would just stop coming after 7 years. Though I'm thinking as a human and not as a t. And then I turn it around and maybe she is ticked off that I'd leave and not let her know and she's thinking what kind of person does that to someone who's been helping them for 7 years. arggggg

I think we had a good rel'ship over the 7 years, although we did have our bumpy times. I think that's expected when you work with someone for so long and that work is mostly focused on trauma stuff. I walked out one other time, but called her the next day to apologize and explain. And then another time I took a 2 month break, but again explained. And I know she would never call and ask me to come back bc she has always said that therapy is my choice and even when i told her (at the last session) that I needed to go she did ask me to stay and talk but when i said I couldn't she said it was my choice if I wanted to leave. But now I guess I wished that she'd have at least called to let me know she was still there and available if I ever wanted to come back. Because she didn't, I'm now left feeling like she was glad I left and doesn't want me to come back.

Idk.