It's an assessment, but I'm pretty sure (like 95%) that I will be accepted.

My T kind of said it was this or IP.

What I am worried about is that I won't be able to do it all, PHP, work, taking care of my dogs and other animals. And today I was just diagnosed with a heart condition. So that another doctor I need to see.

I'm scared that if I can't get less hours, I will be forced to quit. And I can't do that to my family. I'm faced with masking my problems to save the ones I love, or try to fix myself for others (as I couldn't care less for myself). I'm starting to lean to the first one as we need the money. At least, in the end if I do die (possibly by my own hands), I would have dies helping the loves of my life, rather than being selfish.