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Originally Posted by secretgalaxy
It's an assessment, but I'm pretty sure (like 95%) that I will be accepted.
My T kind of said it was this or IP.
What I am worried about is that I won't be able to do it all, PHP, work, taking care of my dogs and other animals. And today I was just diagnosed with a heart condition. So that another doctor I need to see.
I'm scared that if I can't get less hours, I will be forced to quit. And I can't do that to my family. I'm faced with masking my problems to save the ones I love, or try to fix myself for others (as I couldn't care less for myself). I'm starting to lean to the first one as we need the money. At least, in the end if I do die (possibly by my own hands), I would have dies helping the loves of my life, rather than being selfish.
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I'm going to call you on this one. Having just attended the funeral for a student who committed suicide and seen the shattered lives left in his wake, your death would NOT be helping the people in your life. It would leave a gaping wound that they likely would never quite recover from.
Your loved ones want you to be healthy and safe. If you are doing so poorly that IP is a consideration, then you clearly need to prioritize your health and safety and family ahead of money and work.