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Originally Posted by ScarletPimpernel
Yeah. You're probably right about everything. Because she's so different, it will probably help me avoid transference as well (though I'm still projecting). And it's probably a good thing I'm frustrated. At least I'm seeing her as her, and am able to express the frustration.
But I still need help with finding topics to lead! I know there's things to talk about, but w/o her guiding, I don't know if it's productive. Right now, the source of my struggles is my ex-T. But what more can I say? I've said I'm hurt and I miss her hundreds of times already.
Next week, I only have two topics. 1. My hw my Pdoc gave me. 2. Will she ask ex-T why I can't have contact. I need 2 more. I think one topic should be why she should help me in leading the conversation :P Hey, it is something I'm upset about... But number 4?
My problem is that I'm locking myself in my house again, so there's not much drama going on. I have no social anxiety, no relationship problems... My depression and anxiety atm can be blamed on ex-T. So my life is pretty dull. I have a lot to work on, a long way to grow, but where do I start.
Someone please tell me how to start!  Please... |
I spent today being immensely frustrated with my therapist, so I know how it feels. However, I did also know that he wasn't doing what he was doing because he wanted to be a jerk, he was doing it because he thinks it's better for me. And it probably is.
You're such a great writer, I think you would be well served writing your feelings about this and using them as a starting point for discussion. You can read them off the page if you want. Leading doesn't mean conducting the session, she will start to engage once you pick a direction, I would imagine.