i understand. i still have a hard time being female too....also being a human and all the things a body does in general.

i also often feel younger than i am, esp. when it comes to intimacy..which just doesn't even exist for me. i don't know how to date because i'm afraid of men...i can feel red flags in almost every situation with a guy which can cause me to dissociate because of fear..and i don't know how i'll ever be close to a guy because i am afraid of dissociating if i'm ever in a vulnerable/bad situation with a man again and cannot get out. so, sometimes it just feels safer to not get involved at all....except it makes me sad too.