I am 21 years old, and I want a mentor around my age or older. A person with success and strive someone who can give me a direction. They feel like a parent I really needed, I don't do drugs or anything bad. I mean in my passions a friend a true friend, man I'm crying so badly, because I hate working at this job. I feel like no showing today and not going to look back, because I can't look at myself anymore. Seeing everything fall past me. I can't cope how my life is now, and it has not gotten better.

I wanted someone to take my talent someone to surprise me, I hate doing this alone. I get it, I surprise myself and I do need to be independent, I want to go to school, be social live a life where I can feel free. Where my job isn't trying to support a roof over my head only, but helping in my career path. I hate living here, in this washed up area.

****. I can't do it, I don't care how my record is. I'm young rash and stupid and I'd probably be broke and starving from today's choices, but damn I just ****ing hate living like this.

I'm ungrateful or stupid, whatever it is. I can't live here, waiting for something to come along on mcdonald's hourly pay. Getting all my money stolen and my life being a ****ing joke.

Before that happens I'd rather die. I'm completely honest. I don't care how rash or stupid you think I am, I don't care how demeaning the tone is of others. I can not be like these people here anymore, if I can't leave here. I'll die in peace. I can't do this. I need a role model a father like figure. I love my dad, but he is too unavailable. My mother too involved and rather over aggressive and insensitive. Rather I feel like a piece of ****.

Wtf I need to explain anymore. It's not like anyone can give me something useful other than getting drugs in my system or going to a hospital. That put me in debt too. I don't care, rather I need to run away from this hell. I need someone to find some diamond in me that I can't see, someone who believes in me and encourages me not tears me down every day. Why am I living here?

**** these ****** *** people.
I have no regrets for that.
I dont' give a **** who I offend today.
They stepped on me for far too long.