not sure what is the technical term...form of transference...or projection...or something..

I have realized that at times when i talk to my T...i am scared of him...i think he will scream at me..belittle me...and not take me seriously...just like my father.

My T is NOTHING like my father ofcourse...not age wise...not personality wise...completely opposite in all aspects !

I challenge myself to talk openly and see that he does listen, validates and cares.

i actually like this dynamic...cuz i feel i will not be attached to him...and there will be a distance...as .01% will be somewhat scared of him. its like i can see him be upset and mad at me. i can imagine what that would like...his facial expression and all...even though he has not been upset with me yet. he has been pretty calm and cool ! but its like it could happen and i know what that would look like.

does it make sense?
is this negative transference? good thing? bad thing?