(((((Finding my way))))).

I'm sorry that you feel that way hun. Thanks for sharing here, it's so like lonely feeling when there is no one that you can locally turn to, nobody that understands our situation.

Can't it be both? Our body goes into bipolar depression naturally and it affects most everyone. In its deepest depths, we do dissociate into a fog sometimes because it's torture with all the bad thoughts that triggers our self harmers.

Hang in their sweety and I hope that things gets better for you.