thanks for the patience IWonder...

1. i have been into inappropriate relation in search of love. no cutting or binge eating etc...

2. eventhough i get attached to people easily.. slowly i get dependent.. instead of making them happy, i often get emotional and get angry and use rude words and slowly people go away from me... when i act so i am not conscious..

3 i am on anti-depressant - Venlor- 75 mg & lorizapam. some say i have mild borderline..doc say i have bipolar II. but i believe all the problem arises due to the negavtive thinking of being not loved or downward feeling of worthlessness.

i have insight of problems but unable to put effort.. something is pulling me back....I mean i am unable to make a conscious effort for the problems..

but thanks to this medicine..it keeps me blank without much depression.