Hi Moodycow, how are you doing? Sorry to hear about the death of your mother, it's a difficult time for you. It is really hard to stop drinking and from my own experience there was really nothing anyone could say that would get through to me that it was very serious. I was a binge drinker but when the binge would happen it would last for as long as I could physically get it into me. It's no easy feat to stop. I did all the usual things to stop, attending AA for many years but it never helped(that's not to say it wouldn't help you, it's just not for everyone). I eventually stopped 6 years ago because I was tired of humiliating myself. Being picked up off the street so many times, falling, smashing my head open(several times) etc etc and feeling so ashamed and embarrassed that the only way I could deal with it was to have another drink until I couldn't stomach it. I'm glad to be sober but there have been times that I feel that I would love a drink, just to get away from reality for a while but I know where it will lead and I'm so weary of it all. I wish you well. There is never a good time to stop because when we stop we are so raw and fragile. Whether you decide to stop now or in the future, keep in mind to have your detox supervised as you've said. It's a safer and less painful way. Good luck.