Hi ShaggyChic,

"Tell you why you have it all wrong and convince you I really am nothing but a 2-bit *****"
Try as much as you want but you're not going to convince me of that
And I'm so sorry you haven't had enough people in your life to support you in seeing yourself without judgement, with compassion and respect
But I know that sometimes, after being treated so badly and being viewed so badly by others and by yourself so for so long, it can kind of feel fake when others treat/see you differently..........like you don't deserve it, like you aren't worthy of it. But you are and you always were deserving/worthy of that.
And whatever you did, whatever you were trapped into doing/feeling, you still should be treated with respect, with compassion, with empathy, you still should be valued for being you. And nothing should take away your right to be seen (including by yourself) and treated with dignity.
And you know at the end of all of this you've actually shown yourself to be so admirable........people have led you into such dark places, but you managed to break away from that, you rose above it!!!
Now I completely understand how hard it might be to look back, but the person you're looking back on does deserve your respect, that person gradually gathered the immense amount of courage, of strength to breakthrough to become a survivor, to become who you are today. And that is pretty amazing!!!
And now, neither that person or you deserves to be looked down on, or to be hurt all over again in any way
Please keep on trying to recognise and to reach out for the kindness you so deserve.



Alison