Welcome to Psych Central. I am so sorry you are suffering from feelings of depression and grief about multiple issues. Some people find it helps to contact a grief counselor or therapist. If you have a prescribing doc for Psych medicine and tell them how med is not working, they might change or modify prescription. If not a psych doc can help with meds to get back on stable ground. Supporting animal shelters with donations might be one may to reach a place of completeness about this issue.

The depression chat meets every Thursday night 9pm Greenwich -5 hours since we are on daylight savings or 9pm EST. You need 5 posts or replies to other posts to use the chat room.
Anxiety chat on Wednesday is similar if you can't swing Thursday night 8pm EST.

There are lots of compassionate people here that can make the load lighter by sharing and caring. Feel free to participate actively at Psych Central.

Some people find the forums give them the compassion and empathy they seek. http://forums.psychcentral.com

Please feel free to private message me or any of the Community Liaisons by left clicking on the name in blue to the left of their post) for questions or just to share.