We broke up almost exactly a year ago. I seemed to be doing fine, but today I find myself wondering why she isn't by my side, or sleeping next to me. I can't remember anything.. my memory is wiped, and all I can think of is the good times we had and none of the bad things that broke us up. I don't even recognize myself in the mirror any more.

I know it'll pass, but it is bizarre and troubling.

After almost unrelenting **** for 25 years, it starts to really creep up on me that it may not ever get better. I don't like that. It's been a long, long, long road and I'm gettin' tired.

Well, good night.

Thanks for listening.