Hi everyone. I was just talking with my mother about vitamins, and she told me that she tried to get her internist to perscribe her something for anxiety. Instead she perscribed her antidepressants, which she was unhappy about. I tried to tell her medicine shouldn't be used as the first line of defense, instead coping strategies. She said the reason for her anxiety is life problems like no income, or not being able to pay bills. This is no reason to take medicine, so I suggest stead coping strategies. She said "You know what would be a great coping strategy? If I kill that B**** Jane!" I tried to explain that his was not the right course of action, but clearly she didn't care and kept talking about how she wants to stab her over and over. Then she went outside to smoke... I saw her making stabbing motions 0.0

After this I was overcome with many emotions. Anger, I scream louder than ever and my throat hurts so much now. I slammed my pillow against my bed. Fear. I was crying, but writing this helped me settle down. Saddness. Again, crying.

Why does she get to seek help, and not even accept it, if I can't even? I am so sorry but what the f***?!?! She constantly tells me that I think I am the smartest person in the world, but I do not. Why does she think this, or is it just to aggravate me? Why won't she listen to some of my suggestions?