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Yes, I wholeheartedly agree with Bill3 ~ if it's within your power to get yourself to A&E (or ER) then please do so.
On my part things are total crapola. Whilst not actually binging and purging, I am eating a too much of the wrong things and I don't even enjoy them. I have anxiety over everything I eat, knowing it will land forever on my already growing body ~ and I HATE it with all of my being. If only I could get back into restricting NOW, I could prevent any more weight gain. With gain comes so much self hate that I self harm and do other damaging things to my body. I just wanna be THIN, simple as that. I'm a slim person with a great big fat ugly lump of a body fighting to get out, I fool everyone but myself. After 30 plus years of eating disorders which have often landed me in the psych hospital, I STILL don't get how to beat it all. X
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