I don't want it to seem like my therapist is not doing a good job , or offering me alternative ways to heal and core as well as an ample amount of support. We had a long conversation about the wants and needs stemming from the wish/idea and she gave more some probably valid reasons of why this was not the way to go. Mostly I think she is worried that I've already spent so much time and effort in my life to repress the memories and they've not withered. She wants me to get better asap so I can start really living my life, instead of contemplating ending it.