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Originally Posted by Artchic528
Let me get this straight. Your friend's mere touch and his sexual escapades whilst in the room next to yours, sexually arouse you.
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His sexual escapades where 1 meter away from me in the same little room, couldnt escape that. I dont know what is the exact thing that gives me a boner. i dont get sexual desire or any thought about him. I dont get thoughts when i am home alone and not when i am masturbating....i just get boner when im listening to his sex detailes or having a close contact. this sucks! couse we were allways so close like huging when beeing drunk on sunday and stuff like that and it not used to be this way.
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Originally Posted by Artchic528
You think of gay sexual acts as you masturbate, or once did because it arouses you to the point of having an erection. However, you clearly state that you are not gay yourself?
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I am not gay, in fact i dont belive that enyone is gay. i think most people are bisexual but they chouse they way they like.
i did not masturbate thinking about him and me but imagining him and his girl doing it. At that time i was a virgin. Now i sametimes get like flash image of them when masturbating...its just as this thing is written in me like a inprinted code that automatically comes out even not wanted.
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Originally Posted by Artchic528
This doesn't make sense, unless, that is, you're suppressing your sexuality in some way. Which, when I think about it, was me some many years ago.
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I dont want to get naked infront that friend, i dont want to see him naked, i dont want to piss beside him, i dont want to see his penis...get it? and i even avoid to be touched becouse of this erection problem. I am so frustraited about this! and just to say we used to go to the same gym and i had no problem to get naked in front of him or seeing him naked in the shower.
with enyone else there is no problem, i could kiss my all male frineds and we would still be straight. and i can get naked in front of them and jerk of and it wouldnt be a problem. it would be funny probably. well i dont know...lol...but you get what i want to explain? my english is not perfect so i dont know how this looks to someone reading it.
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Originally Posted by Artchic528
You can't just decide to be one sexuality.
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I dont get excited about boys neither do i have any impulses to go and try to do something. When i was younger as teen i was little confused, latter i cleard it out and i know am straight.
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Originally Posted by Artchic528
Now, you have two decisions, either embrace yourself for who you are and feel as free as the wind blows, or stay in denial and keep on trying to be someone you're not, no matter how many times you tell yourself you are that way. What will it be?
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the second thing, lol
And really if that is the choice i would allways chose the second thing. Its not the question if i am a stright or gay...its question can i stop this thing?
If i mastrubate watching 2 cats having sex i would be latter excited if i see that scene again? yes? If you masturbate a lot of time to the same thing you start to have some automatical response to that i think.
So how can i stop that? is there an specialist on this area, some kind of therapist?
I just want to have my frendship back to normal again....this is so frustraiting. I cant run from him, i dont want to run...but neither do i want to get some action with him or no other male. Hes like a brother to me, and if this has been happening to me when beeing close with most of the other male frineds i have i would just let them go awqay and i would avoid them with no problem. I just cant and wount let this thing go. I am brave man and i will fight this thing or i cant watch myself in the mirror. i hate this and i hate myself for haveing this problem... not really couse haveing a problem...so it is as it is...but for not being able to get rid of it.
I love my friend, like really really love...pure love...not that stupid feeling when in love with girl but the real feeling of care, the knowing the soul of someone....its like when i watch a little child playing in the park and loughing...i just love that child for beeing there. no reason for that, just i love that child...and for example the dog just for beeng a silly dog. I love him as a human beeing and i just want to hug him like i used to. I love psysical contact with him and all other friends (male and female). we gone to a lot of things together so you can just imagine how this is so hard situation for me