wow, so far in the past 144 hours, i have gotten high for the first time in about 9 months, then i almost od on prozac, i took 340mg and smoked about 4 grams of weed. and now my boyfriend who might have gotten me pregnant just broke up with me. i am so upset right now. i mean i am so upset that i cant even feel upset. and im craving for my blade so badly. i need to know im still here and that i can feel pain. because after i feel the pain of my blade i will be able to feel all this emotional pain, right? i need help, i see my t tomarrow, but i dont think i can wait until then. my medicine doctor told me i should start seeing my t every week now instead of every month, so he thinks something is wrong, and so do i. but i cant decide if i am to scared to fix it, or i cant fix it.