I have tried everything to fight these urges for three days, but they are just getting worse and worse. I've bathe all my dogs, cleaned the bird cage, vacuumed, dusted, went shopping, hung out with friends, exercised, read a book, watched TV, did the laundry, researched about a new topic, and played the piano. This was all in hopes that the urges would disappear, but it's feels like the more I delay, the more pressure builds up in the bottle. And everytime I do something to distract me, it causes the bottle to shake. I'm scared to SI now because I may do it rather seriously, but if I don't, the bottle may explode and then that would be much, much worse.

I'm really trying.... Why are the urges not going away?