Hi Catholicnun, welcome to PC.

I can understand your confusion. We can't even begin to diagnose you because we aren't professional people, just affected like you.

The causes can be anything between physical and mental reasons, so being open and honest with your medical and mental care providers is a really good place to start.

It reminds me though about the times when I fall into a dissociative trance, where my mind dissociates to escape confrontation, a triggered coping mechanism. It's all foggy looking and I feel weirdly calm. But I'm usually like a zombie at that point and not able to function well, stuttering as I go, but that's my damaged and abused self at that time coming through when I was a wee teenager.

Like just a girl said, copy this post for your T. Another handy idea is to keep a journal to keep track of your experiences that you can show your T.

I hope you get things worked out and get well.