the wife will be her in 2.5 hours. I can barely concentrate on anything, certainly not any packing.
I'm beginning to think the sh urges are triggered by
any strong emotion, because right now I want to despite being happy (maybe it's in response to the anxiety of having to wait longer till she get here b/c she missed her original flight)...
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And I know the SH is something/one of the few things you can control right now, something you know might give relief.........but it is just temporary relief, right??
And you know that the urges are still going to return (maybe even stronger) if..........., and the pain/hurt.........is still going to be there afterwards if...........
So as much as you can hold off, hey??
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thinking about this statement, aren't
all coping skills just temporary? eventually, we have to utilize them again, be they "healthy" or "unhealthy" ones... Just something I was thinking about... not a criticism or anything. It's just funny how we use this phrase to try to prevent the use of more maladaptive skills, but we also use it to remind people to keep trying the more socially acceptable ones. hmm...
I tried to work on my journal a bit last night, but I kept stalling. I even dragged out some of the supplies I had packed. I just couldn't get unstuck. I wanted to do somethign creative, but it all stalled in my pencil. Oh well. It's all good. The wifey is almost here!!!!!!!!!!!
amazing what being around someone you love can do for your mood and coping (though it doesn;t always work this way, at the moment it is).