I totally feel like a fraud. I have got every job I ever applied for(and there were many) because I can come across as self assured, funny etc. However, there were many times that I took jobs that were way too stressful for me and I avoided the technical stuff when I could and if not just bluffed my way through. I'm a fraud in every area of my life. Nobody knows me at all, even close friends and while there was a time when I would have wished that someone could see inside my head and what was really going on, of course it never happened. I'm so ashamed of who I am that I will be a fraud for the rest of my days. It's a self preserving, survival mode and thankfully there have been many times where I've pulled it off.