Please hold me in good thoughts today. I am really struggling. My job requires me to work with kids, many of them abused as I was. I have been "triggering" all weekend. . .not looking forward to today honestly.

Thinking of calling T.. . .but what on earth would I say? "Oh, see, this girl was talking about the couch, and I was all brave and such, until someone pointed out how vulnerable the couch can make you and NOW I'm flipped out." Hmmm. . .don't see THAT going over too well.

graaaaaaaaahahhhhhhhhhhhhh