Thanks. I belong to a lot of clubs in school that I genuinely got into because I like doing the things that they offer. Still nothing. Always a more attractive person that the guys seem to glum onto.

I know it doesn't make me an awful person because I don't have a boyfriend, but it would be nice to have one or to have someone tell me that they choose to love me. Not being loved is a feeling that you don't know until you've experienced it for yourself. It's devistating.

There are 13 year old girls that just happen to have more experience than I do. Being so much older, and not even having my first kiss or a guy my age flirting with me, it's like I'm emotionally stunted and I'll never be able to reverse that. It's like a 50 year old trying to learn how to speak for the first time.