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DAYS 03 & 04
Was rather busy on the 4th of July. Overall things went smoothly, no physical side effects, slept like a log for about 9 hours the night of Day 03. Not even the dry mouth has returned. I also noticed that emotions are becoming increasingly blunted, still chaotic, but definitely more blunted. I know some people do not like that, which is completely understandable, but to me it has been feeling like a huge relief. Day 04 (today) has gone pretty much the same.
Notably:
My agitation is completely gone, insomnia is gone, homicidal ideation is gone, paranoid delusion issues seem to be almost completely gone.
The only major concern I'm having currently is that it seems the 5mg starts to wear off within little more than an hour to the 24 hours mark, and the hallucinations portion of my symptoms seem to return not only immediately but also more severe (just a smidge, but definitely noticeable) than what I have been used to over the past several months.
For example on the drive home this evening, around 7:30-8:00PM (dosage last night was taken a bit past 9:00PM) I started to see a votex-thing in the sky that was sucking dark, shiny clouds into it. Now that alone didn't shock me much, but the issue was that even once I 'confronted' it, the hallucination remained. Luckily I was a passenger in the vehicle, because I couldn't help but just stare at it, it was mesmerizing. When I got out of the vehicle just less than half an hour ago, I noticed that nothing looked real, the trees all looked fake, like a really detailed painting, and I felt some blunted anxiety going on. Immediately got into the house and took my dosage. I am still feeling and perceiving oddly. The text on my screen I am typing right now seems to get smaller and smaller periodically, everything still 'feels' unreal. But I am completely lucid in the sense that I know this happening, so to speak.
Now just sort of bunkered down and waiting for the 5mg to hopefully kick in soon and make this weirdness stop. Hoping this will pass soon as I have no physical side effects so far and would really like Zyprexa to work for that reason.
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