I certainly don't mind you asking. No, I do not make friends with people easily, if at all. As a matter of fact I have no friends. I am a loner. I have high anxiety around people and social situations so that doesn't help. I've been independent pretty much all my life until recently. I just moved in with my mom, brother, and her friend. I have trouble getting "close" to people. As this is when you become vulnerable. I used to use alcohol to ease my anxiety so I used to have a lot of drinking "friends" but we all know those are not real friends. I have had close friends and girlfriends in the past but I have been stabbed in the back one way or another by about 80% of them. I have been taken advantage and used many times. So I do not open up easily. A lot of brick walls around me. So I know what it's like to be used/manipulated and also know what it's like to be lonely. Know what it's like to be defensive too. So if you don't have many friends and are afraid of losing this friend for fear of being lonely, I can completely understand that. It will not be worth getting burned/hurt in the end though. Especially if you've invested so much in this "friendship." Which it sounds like you have. As someone else mentioned, her pushing you away at times could be defense mechanism. As it is something I have used consciously and subconsciously in the past. To me it still sounds like the manipulative/using part. So to answer your main question again, no it is very difficult for me to make and/or keep friends.