Really same with me
but I'm religious and I can assure you that God look after us and whatever we suffer from is for something. it also can be to make us get closer to him and ask for more help to be rewarded later.
when I met my online friend my life changed really a lot and I became so happy, then now when she disappeared I feel sad again and lonely, in case she won't come back, well here I'm back here to this forum, maybe for something else important for my life?
God only knows whats better for us, we just keep going and hope for best.