i had a post about this when i first came on here..well, it was more about not having an inner world...not that i know of anyway.

for the most part, i haven't had an inner world. the only thing i ever know of is just darkness, an internal darkness with nothing. it bothers me...i don't know if that is just what i can see and is the only thing that exists or not...

i do know one part, a young child, used to be in a dark room. that was the only one who had a place.

it just kind of upsets me because when i go inside, even to a small degree, it's dark. i don't like that. but i can't change it. it is what it is.