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Originally Posted by finding_my_way
i had a post about this when i first came on here..well, it was more about not having an inner world...not that i know of anyway.
for the most part, i haven't had an inner world. the only thing i ever know of is just darkness, an internal darkness with nothing. it bothers me...i don't know if that is just what i can see and is the only thing that exists or not...
i do know one part, a young child, used to be in a dark room. that was the only one who had a place.
it just kind of upsets me because when i go inside, even to a small degree, it's dark. i don't like that. but i can't change it. it is what it is.
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Awww, as I wrote, I used to be like that, but it's like we opened a locked door from a dark room into a well lit house that had a kitchen and a big central room with stair wells going up. People congregated in the kitchen and everywhere while colors abound. Nobody really paid attention to me because I was quite the dictator. This is way beyond imagination because it built it's self. Everyone was running around happy organizing their room. The dark room never came back.
Just letting go created a new envitroment.
