Possible trigger:
Most difficult decision in my life was choosing to use deadly force to save my own life. Taking a human life, the life of a person I loved, has caused me severe distress and ptsd. Only after years in therapy have I made peace with that decision. But my life is changed forever. So sad  I am sorry he is dead but I am glad my [then] eleven year old son did not have to grow up without a mom.
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The purpose of life is not to be happy. It is to be useful, to be honorable, to be compassionate, to have it make some difference that you have lived and lived well. anonymous
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