I know this is forward of me, but i do say this to give a inch of insight into AvPD for you.

After reading all your posts, you don't seem to display Avoidance. Although Avies come from different backgrounds and circumstances there is a common thread that connects us that seems to be recognizable from one Avie to another.
Plenty people have anxiety issues that lead them to hold back or hide away, but that isn't AvPD. For example AvPD is my core issue your's is perhaps BPD? and you have symptoms or traits of avoidance as a result or reaction caused by your core being BPD.

Welcome.