<font color="#000088">I've been learning the real emotions that I'm supposed to feel in my therapy sessions,instead of just anger. Like sadness, fear, grief(loss), frustration, dissappointment, worry, sorrow, and then ofcourse there's the unconditional love that my Dad taught me. My Therapist explained that my mind just skips from those other emotions,and just goes straight to anger,since that's all I had known to survive mentally,and physically. But that I've always been able to show love. So I'm still learning,and working at it,and doing my best to be less aggresive each day!
The death of my Father was a set back,because it did bring up a lot of anger,but that was because of the way my family was handling things about his death. Like his Life Insurance,and his religious burial,he wasn't an active Mormon,yet they still gave him a Mormon funeral,and buried him in his Mormon Temple clothes,which was against his wishes.He no longer believed in the Mormon Church,and wanted out.So when they did that to him,it brought up much anger for me,that they put that ridiculous skirt on him,when he would have wanted to be dressed in his best suit! It made him look like a female,I just couldn't even look for very long,but to tell my goodbye's!
My family is very greedy with money,and they were talking about his insurance,even before his funeral,and that angered me as well,because my Dad was a very generous Man as well as loving! </font>