has anyone experienced the feeling of something feeling scary when something happens while you are in a dissociated/anxious state that is not really scary or harmful but triggers you into more of a dissociated/anxious state to the point it feels so real you almost are not able to tell if it is real or not?

for me, i have had this kind of thing happen my entire life on and off. it happens when i am dissociated sometimes but is not a main symptom for me.

when i was younger, there was a time i thought someone put a bomb in the mailbox to try to harm me.

lately when i have left the house, it seems like strange things happen (only because i'm on edge/dissociated) that might not seem strange if i wasn't.

today, it was a crow that seemed to follow me, fly over my head, and crow very loud. it scared me so bad. then two of them did the same thing in the same area to the point i almost cried because it terrified me. part of me didn't know if they were to hurt me or if it meant something that they were following me. i tried so hard to talk myself down/out of it, but it was very hard during that moment to get grounded.

things like that are so scary and i barely can tell reality from that kind of thing...at least with derealization/depersonalization, i know that is not real..but when you throw panic/fear into it, it is so difficult.

a few months ago, i was so distraught over having lost a friend and then other things happening that i was extremely dissociated and in a state like this except it was that i thought someone was in the back yard watching me..i could almost see them except i couldn't at the same time....

is that something that might be common with dissociation or ptsd or trauma or something else maybe? i have not been able to figure it out, and my psychiatrist has not really explained to me what it might be.