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Originally Posted by finding_my_way
has anyone experienced the feeling of something feeling scary when something happens while you are in a dissociated/anxious state that is not really scary or harmful but triggers you into more of a dissociated/anxious state to the point it feels so real you almost are not able to tell if it is real or not?
for me, i have had this kind of thing happen my entire life on and off. it happens when i am dissociated sometimes but is not a main symptom for me.
when i was younger, there was a time i thought someone put a bomb in the mailbox to try to harm me.
lately when i have left the house, it seems like strange things happen (only because i'm on edge/dissociated) that might not seem strange if i wasn't.
today, it was a crow that seemed to follow me, fly over my head, and crow very loud. it scared me so bad. then two of them did the same thing in the same area to the point i almost cried because it terrified me. part of me didn't know if they were to hurt me or if it meant something that they were following me. i tried so hard to talk myself down/out of it, but it was very hard during that moment to get grounded.
things like that are so scary and i barely can tell reality from that kind of thing...at least with derealization/depersonalization, i know that is not real..but when you throw panic/fear into it, it is so difficult.
a few months ago, i was so distraught over having lost a friend and then other things happening that i was extremely dissociated and in a state like this except it was that i thought someone was in the back yard watching me..i could almost see them except i couldn't at the same time....
is that something that might be common with dissociation or ptsd or trauma or something else maybe? i have not been able to figure it out, and my psychiatrist has not really explained to me what it might be.
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here in my location dissociation does not include delusions and paranoia. here one of the diagnostics for all the dissociation symptoms and dissociative disorders is that reality testing remains intact. that means a person knows whats real and what isnt and can tell whats real and what isnt,....delusions and paranoia are when someone thinks or believes something that can not possibly be real, is worried about things that can not possibly be real at that moment.
thats not saying a person cant have more than one diagnosis. someone can have a diagnosis of dissociation problems and another diagnosis of having delusions/hallucinations/ paranoia...
for example I have a diagnosis of dissociative disorders (which does not include those things) plus I have a diagnosis of bipolar disorder (which can cause me to have delusions, paranoia) plus I have anxiety disorders (which also can have delusions, paranoia as symptoms. I am also on some meds that can cause the symptoms of having delusions, paranoia when they are not the right dosage or wrong medication for me.
here in my location its pretty common for people to be dual diagnosed (meaning having more than one mental disorder) which explains all their symptoms. it is also pretty common here in my location for some people to have medication side effects of delusions, paranoia.
my suggestion is contact your (or a) treatment provider in your off computer location. they will be able to sort out what your diagnosis's are and which of your symptoms comes from which mental disorder.