I am at the point where I think I need to get a therapist for my children and me. I don't really know what I want to get from therapy. My husband was the one who I always thought needed it... and from not getting it when he should, I feel I am the one stuck needing it now. I just found out 2 months ago that my husband of 12 years, and trusted more than anyone, went behind my back to meet men on Craig's list and got HIV. I always thought he had anger issues and PTSD, but like most who have the same, he denied it. All the while, he was addicted to gay porn all his life and wanted to experiment himself. To go through that as a married man and father just isn't a "normal" thing to do. Now, I don't know what I am doing. I have been just helping him get his health back... now that he is better, he just acts like everything is normal... I feel more and more bitter every day. I remain calm for our 7 and 8 year old daughters, but know that their lives are going to change.
I have no idea where to go from here... How do I find a therapist... How do I make an appointment... How do I explain it all... I don't know where to begin.