It has been brought to my attention that i have issues around contol. My therapist thinks that my self harm and liking for high places is about gaining control. But then i wondered about my binge drinking and getting arrested or taken to hospital by the police when i cant cope. Surely these situations remove the control from me completely. Is it possible for someone who strives to be in control to deliberatly relinquish control to someone or something else if they feel they cant control themselves? I think subconciously this is what i have been doing. Has anyone else experienced this all or nothing attitude to control or is it just me?
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