hi i just got out of a codependent relationship (friendship / platonic)
and to sum it up it was very emotionally abusive

the guy has antisocial traits (not diagnosing him with apd but he has every trait like....) and hes really good at looking like an innocent nice guy

hes charming every1 loves him etc etc

when he ended the friendship i posted about him (kept his name private) on my blog
and he threatened to call a lawyer on me
and he guilt tripped me and everything

if u google psychological manipulation tactics he literally uses ALL of them on me
and hes just so horrible and the worst part is that all my friends like him and nobody defends me and i feel so alone

like i overdosed because of him and he kept telling me to shut up when i was feeling like i was losing my sense of life and everything it was so horrible im not gonna go into details but

i dont know what to do he literally stalks my blog 24/7 (i have statcounter which tells me how many times he visits) (he visits A LOT)
like he monitors everything i do
and that;'s stalking and he is trying to intimidate me

and i am not the type to hold things inside i NEED to talk about them
ive been apologizing and feeling guilty all this time when it was not my fault

he is literally an rich privileged egocentric cis white male

like it sounds like its not a big deal as im typing this but im not going into details so i dont bore anyone or go off topic

ever since he ended the friendship i just remember everything bad he did and he minimizes it
and ive been getting panic/anxiety attacks whenever i see his name anywhere i get triggered so easily (im having bad chest pain right now from my panic attack earlier) and im dissociating / depersonalizing /derealizing a lot
like
i think i actually relapsed into my depression again
i feel so horrible
i cant leave the house im just so tired i feel horrible

also i remembered some traumatizing memories from when i was a child so that is just great@!!!!!!!!!!!!!