I am newly engaged to the love of my life. He is amazingly supportive. In the past I have struggled with alcoholism and self harm. He helped me through it when my family chose it ignore it. My family loved him in the beginning, but now that we are engaged I am getting nothing but grief from them. I've only been engaged for a few weeks and in this time I've grown deeply depressed because of my family. I'm struggling to keep from going back to old bad habits. When I get this depressed all I want to do is grab a bottle of vodka and a razor blade. I live with my mom to help her out financially so I get to deal with the negativity on a daily basis. I'm torn about telling my fiance about how I'm feeling, I don't want him to be hurt by my family and their negative views about our engagement.