Is this the guy who said he was surprised that you have an MBA? That's weird... but maybe he hasn't gotten to it yet? I'm terrible with Linked In - I secretly resent having to be on there, and I really hate that random people send me invites, and they don't bother to customize the message at all! You know, they just send the default "I'd like to connect with you" message. There's no explanation of who they are or why we should connect. I think that's fine with people you know well, and maybe have already talked to, but... I don't know, maybe I'm the only one that gets bothered by stuff like that.

I hope he links up with you soon!

I'll have to talk to my therapist about the screaming thing. It's such a weird feeling thing. I don't know, I'm picturing us doing screaming practice in the office, which is attached to a fancy restaurant (out in back, it's a weird setup).

re: The people who go on and on... I always wonder if they're waiting for some sign that I understand. But after this last conversation, I think that can't be it - I was really clear, over and over, that I got it. I don't know why some people are like that, but I hate it! I don't want to hear the SAME explanation in 17 different ways!!! Ugh... I think I need to have more "oomph", more ability to interrupt and talk over people, since our group seems to communicate that way. And I don't. You know how when someone starts talking over someone else, there's always that moment where the first speaker can just get a bit louder and sort of keep them from interrupting? I don't seem to be able to do that - I always lose! !!! Maybe it relates back to screaming, maybe I need to figure out how to be LOUD.

I'm so sorry that you're feeling overwhelmed! Is it all from the job? I wish there was something helpful I could suggest... ugh. I hate work. It's crazy to me, because I think that work could be awesome - it's a great way to get to contribute to something, to find a bit of community, to feel like you're achieving something. And then idiot bosses and incompetent companies go and screw it up and make it awful and hideous and cringe-worthy. I wish I had an answer for you - it sounds like you know that you need to find some other income streams, but it IS hard. Have you made any more progress on the project that you told me about? The one that was just about ready to start selling to people? It sounds like if you could take that leap, at least it would give you a little bit of passive income to start building on?

And, yeah... so unfair that the cool looking UX group is another state. I don't think I'm going to end up contacting them, because I really have no interest at all in moving there. The location is not just "not attractive" to me, it's an actual deterrent, and I just can't see how it would help with all my life issues. I can't be that close to my mom... just not going to happen!

Gotta run, in person meetings today. Ugh! Hope your day is better today, and you can squeeze in something fun and relaxing to help cope with the overwhelm and crappiness of it all! (Hmm the spell checker does not recognize "crappiness", and wants me to change it to... "snappiness"! I'd so much rather have a "snappy" day, not sure what that it is, but it sounds more fun than "crappy"!)