Welcome to the club of feeling sad. Its not a fun club but to me its normal. To me there is no such thing as normal. But that is after years of searching for an answer. To no avail. The biggest support for me is here. Knowing that I'm not alone helps me a lot. Helping others and choosing to live a full life help. My biggest issue is telling my family. .. its not easy. But if life were meant to be easy we wouldn't have challenges. Just saying. Keep your head up.