2 weeks ago we adopted 2 ginger male kittens - they were 4 weeks old. they had many names, garfield, gizmo, garfunkel, toya, saffron, garlic and yesterday we finally settled on gizmo and gadget. gizmo, a real little character and obviously the runt of the litter creeped very very deep into my heart. perhaps because he was not quiet as beautiful as his brother but i suppose because he had such spirit. unfortunately he was killed this afternoon. i am so sad, cannot stop crying, keep looking at the photographs i took and keep thinking what if i did this or that then he would still be here. i feel a bit broken inside. i have never lost a loved one but have lost many pets before. if this is how i react to losing a pet, how will i ever handle losing a loved one? he was so beautiful, i feel so sad for not having him with me anymore. i will miss him much.