i was friend with two others a a guy and girl. i thought we were buddies. he had a secret relationship with her. he would ask me along as he did not want to beseen with her for some reason did not want people to know they were dating. it was on off . on our last outing he hugged her when i was gone to bathroom and stopped when he saw me returing. i found out a week later and told them both f*** off stop using me.

But i had grown to love her and now they are together.At one point she said she loved me and him but i think me as a friend. i am very depressed and suffer panic attacks about it