No...the problem isn't so much them...it's me. I attach myself to random strangers and believe that there is a friendship there. It's something that I know is unhealthy and needs to stop.

It also doesn't help that I have abandonment issues...I dunno why...maybe it's from all the times I've ever had friends, who eventually walk out of my life, and lose touch. Sometimes it's abrupt...other times the end of the friendship lingers on for weeks, months even.

I would reach out to more people...but the new people will do the same thing. They always do.

I can't think very clearly right now.....eyeballs hurt a fair bit from crying for so long...and the pain is a distraction...perhaps a welcoming one.