I also wonder about my self. Who knows maybe it's our anxiety. I always take tests and look things up to make sure things are what they are. Sometimes I feel like I'm exaggerating, but am I really? I can say my first suicide attempt was a cry for help. But many suicide attempts are, does that really mean we are not really depressed. If we weren't really depressed would we be even crying for help? I may feel better for an hour or so and doubt I'm really depressed. Then there's a trigger and it comes back full swing. I might feel relaxed for a short time on very rare occasions or after I take me meds and then feel like I've been blowing things out of proportion. Then I wake up the next morning throwing up because I get an anxiety attack from knowing I have to deal with another day and that it is all real. I sometimes doubt if I have ADHD or if it's just a lack of discipline. As that's what I often hear from family or people without ADHD. I may not be moving around and rambling on, as those symptoms of ADHD, but I would like to. But I don't do it for fear of being judged. Anxiety. But my mind doesn't stop. I notice I'll check something over and over because I'm not really paying attention when I do something so I don't remember. I think a lot of it has to do with self doubt and low self esteem. We question our own doubts and thoughts. Which ARE real. I question about if I'm overexaggerating to my therapist, but then again I was raised not to talk about my feelings and that could be why it all feels wrong. It seems like me seeking mental help is wrong because that's what I was taught. To "never ask for help or accept help." Maybe we do overexxagerate because we do wanna be heard or feel like someone cares because we are lonely. Maybe I just feel like I'm exaggerating or feel guilty about talking because I was raised to not have feelings or to show them. Or maybe it's because we were taught that having mental illness means we are weak. It's all so complicated. Like trying to put together a big puzzle that's constantly changing and that will last for years. Or never even get solved. I find my self rambling on here sometimes as this is the only place I'm actually open and do not fear being judged as there are many people here with similar problems. When I doubt my feelings I'm usually reminded later that they are real. Who's to say if what your feeling is real or not real. You must be having some issues to even make things up if that's what you're even doing. I'm confused about many things as I think many of us on here are. I do know that this is a good forum and you can vent your feelings here and help other in the process. Not to mention learn a lot. I hope you can get things figured out.